I haven’t posted a makeup in forever. I think it’s been a year or so, maybe even more. However long it’s been, it’s been too long. Ridiculously long.
The thing is, I’ve been going through a really rough patch mentally, I’ve been down a lot, depressed and unmotivated, always tired, scared to death of nothing and anxiety riddled. Some of you might know what I’m talking about. It’s not been pretty.
One of the things that accompanied this ugly phase of mine was the fact that I didn’t feel like doing my makeup. TBH, I struggled to shower at some times. And for the life of me, I couldn’t bring myself to pick up a makeup brush.
And then there was this other thing – self loathing and perfectionism. Nothing I did was good enough, not my makeups, not my pictures, not my writing, just nothing.
The fact that my apartment is rather dim, which shows especially in winter, and I struggled with my photo lighting didn’t help any. It’s not like I hadn’t tried, but I soon learned that if I wanted to take proper pictures, I needed to take them outside. And it’s not like the prospect of sitting outside in freezing temperatures, trying to take makeup pictures was an extremely motivating thought…
Continue reading “Makeup #7 – Soft Brown”
“I wish I had your self confidence, your self-love.”
Words I often hear, and inside of me a little, tiny voice whispers “I do, too…”
As weird as t might seem as a blogger, my confidence level often is low – I can be a drama queen and sometimes I do bathe in attention (all bloggers do somewhat, if we didn’t we would simply write a diary and not even bother putting our stuff out there in public) but most of the time I am rather shy, kept to myself and a socially awkward potato…
Continue reading “Outfit # 8 – I am an awkward social potato”
Summer is nearing its end, it has been an almost vicious, hellishly hot summer this year and I have to admit that I am more than ready to slip into fall. When it is so very hot, I don’t enjoy makeup nor fashion, I just wanna lay in a corner and melt. I bet, I am not the only one who was feeling this way when the temperatures climbed to numbers that would put hell and the Sahara desert to shame.
Thankfully, it is getting a bit cooler, like summer was just waiting for the new school year to start and that means, I can dress up and make up a little again, without the dangers of it being all washed away by sweat (and tears over the heat).
Continue reading “Outfit #7 – Summer, Summer, Summertime”
Some of my readers and followers who have been following me for more than two years may still remember my old blog HateMeOrLoveMe. I shut it down after over 6 years of blogging, since I felt like I had outgrown it, I wanted to blog more professionally, finally host it myself and also talk about different topics.
Sometimes I still go back and read old posts, partly for sentimental reasons, partly for inspiration. I stumbled upon a few old outfit posts and got to thinking – I felt kinda sad that so much work that went into these posts – makeup, outfit, going round the city to find a proper shooting location, the outfit shooting itself, sorting and editing the pictures and so on – was, in the end, for basically nothing. The pictures remain unseen, unpublished, in the dark of my private memories of my old blog.
And then another thought arose – was I “allowed” to recycle these pictures?
Was that ok for a blogger to do?
Or was I obligated to always bring out the newest, latest content?
Continue reading “Outfit #6 – Recycling, but differently”